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i only lost one pound last week, which was sort of a bummer since this upcoming week is my last week on medifast, and i was really hoping to be under 140lbs. by the time i had to pull off of the diet, and that leaves me 3-4lbs. to lose this week in order for that to happen. we’ll see. but yeah, total of 23lbs. now in 7 weeks. not too shabby.

other than that nothing exciting is happening. i am rushing to finish the semester and be done with the semester from hell. kill it with fire.

i’m really broke now. but oh well, its almost summer and i can return to dummy’s and be miserable all summer. miserable but somewhat wealthy. hopefully.


lost 3 pounds last week. so i’m at a total of 22 pounds, 144lbs., and 14 away from my goal. cool. since this is my last month formally on the diet, i’d have to lose 7lbs. each week in order to get to my goal. so instead, i’m aiming for getting under 140lbs. before i have to get off the diet, so i can knock out the last >10lbs. on my own. hopefully i get over being sick soon so that i can exercise again while being able to breathe. i’ll def be going to megan’s hip hop classes both monday and wednesday and maybe i’ll squeeze in a jog on friday.

last night was my NRHH inductions (National Residence Hall Honorary). being inducted means that i have been recognized as being one of the top 1% of residence on campus. it was fun, i got to hear a blerb that was written about me by strangers with the help of my boss. there were cookies and cake. i wanted them. but i didn’t touch them.

i’m broke btw. i make stupid money mistakes constantly. but whatever. that’s why i am working an extra 2 hours today and sitting at a desk indoors for 5 hours straight while quadmania is going on, girltalk is playing, and it’s 75 degrees outside. oh well, i can leave the window open i guess. but i want nothing more than to get a good book and sit outside in the grass and read all day. or have a picnic.

on the note of money, i really want a robe. a silk robe.

and a new phone. mine sucks.

too much has been going on. literally life as i knew it at home no longer exists. when i go home for summer break, i am going to be entering in to a strange, unfamiliar world where i have no idea how anything is going to play out. it used to be that when i was home i longed to be in school, and when i was at school i longed to be at home. now i long to be at school minus the classes all the time. this semester has been so incredibly tough for me. but hey, i have lost 19 lbs. as of last Saturday. tomorrow i will post in here and let you know the end of week six results.
Week One – Saturday March 7th, 2009
Weight: 166

End of Week One – Saturday March 14th, 2009
Weight: 156
Weight Loss: 10 POUNDS!

End of Week Two – Saturday March 21st, 2009
Weight: 153
Weight Loss: 3 pounds.
Total Weight Loss: 13 pounds!

End of Week Three – Saturday March 28th, 2009
Weight: 152
Weight Loss: 1 pound
Total Weight Loss: 14 pounds!

End of Week Four – Saturday April 4th, 2009
Weight: 149
Weight Loss: 3 pounds
Total Weight Loss: 17 pounds!

I tried cauliflower pizza crust. It was pretty tasty, here is the recipe if anyone wants it, its a really healthy alternative to pizza. Just be sure to get fat-free cheese and low carb sauce.

You Won’t Believe it’s Cauliflower Pizza Crust

1 cup cooked, riced cauliflower*
1 egg
1 cup mozzarella cheese
1/2 tsp fennel
1 tsp oregano
2 tsp parsley

**pizza or alfredo sauce

toppings (make sure meats are cooked)
mozzarella cheese

Delicious and easy.

Preheat oven to 450 degrees Farenheit.

Spray a cookie sheet with non-stick spray.

In a medium bowl, combine cauliflower, egg and mozzarella. Press evenly on the pan. Sprinkle evenly with fennel, oregano and parsley.

Bake at 450 degrees for 12-15 minutes (15-20 minutes if you double the recipe).

Remove the pan from the oven. To the crust, add sauce, then toppings and cheese.

Place under a broiler (grill for the Europeans) at high heat just until cheese is melted **.

End of Week Five – Saturday April 11th, 2009
Weight: 147
Weight Loss: 2 pounds
Total Weight Loss: 19 pounds! 17 left to go!


End of Week Two Measurements:
Upper Arms: 11.5 inches
Chest: 38.8 inches
Waist: 32 inches
Hips: 41.8 inches
Thighs: 23.5 inches

End of Week Four Measurements:
Upper Arms: 11 inches
Chest: 36.6 inches
Waist: 30.3 inches
Hips: 37.2 inches
Thighs: 22 inches

End of Week Five Measurements:
Upper Arms: 10.4 inches
Chest: 34.2 inches
Waist: 29.5 inches
Hips: 35.4 inches
Thighs: 20.8 inches

Total Measurement Loss To Date:
Upper Arms: 1.1 inches
Chest: 4.6 inches
Waist: 2.5 inches
Hips: 6.4 inches
Thighs: 2.7 inches

its insane how different i look and feel. and i love that my bmi is of average weight now. so all i have to do really is tone up my stomach area, because i looked up my measurements on an online clothing store and my hip size was to fit in to their extra small and my waist size was to fit in to their small. i am so stoked, i just can’t wait until the summer when i can wear bathing suits and stuff.

this is probably my last month formally on medifast, after this month i think i will be ordering just a few boxes of things and incorporating them in to my diet in order to work my way back to eating normally.

i cannot wait to have turkey on wheat bread again. sometimes the dining hall doesn’t have chicken, so i have to eat lunch meat turkey by itself. and that is no fun. so i cannot wait to have it on wheat toast or even in a wrap. i don’t even remember what white bread is like, which is good i guess since i shouldn’t really have it.

updates tomorrow.

…but i am going to start using it a lot. starting tomorrow i am beginning the medifast diet. ( and i am expecting a lot from myself and this diet. i am going to lose weight this time, i mean it. so i might as well keep it updated on here, ya know? for the record my goal is somewhere between 25-40 pounds. because i don’t remember what i look like skinny anymore, i am going to base it off looks more than i am going to be basing it off of numbers. i don’t want to look too thin but i want to look thin. hm. but yeah i’ve been scouring the internet for all the cute clothes i’m gonna buy once i drop it all. and i’m most excited to wear a bathing suit this summer. more specifically, i keep dreaming of myself in this one :

but i have to lose weight or else my love handles will be popping out everywhere and noone wants to see that mess.

alright, time to wait impatiently by the door until UPS gets here with my fooooood.

i just realized how much stuff i have to do before winter break. my show opens tomorrow and runs until sunday. i have a french exam thursday. monday there is auditions for next semester shows, which i need to memorize both monologues for and read the plays. i have to finish the group project for my theatre history class by tuesday, and then write an 8 page paper that we luckily coerced my teacher in to post poning and making it due on the day of the final. then i have a break to study and i have 3 finals on one day. the 16th. my math final, my french final, and my theatre history final. the same day i have to turn in the 8 page paper. that i haven’t started. or decided what i’m writing it on yet. then i have to study everything we’ve learned in movement, which is a lot of random crap for our final. and have to work on my monologue and write a short paper on the methods i’ve learned in that class. i want to scream. just, scream. if i get cast next semester i’m just straight up dropping class. forget this 23 credit mess. next semester i’ll be almost a junior, according to my advisor. and i came in with zero AP credits. i can make it one easier semester. no classes that require me to read for every class, jsut two performace classes, french, and math. i have intro to scene on my schedule right now but if i get cast, it’s just going out the window. i can take it later i suppose. i just want to go back to my apartment and sleep through all this. but my birthday is friday, that’s cool i suppose. i just can’t deal with all of this stuff coming in on me. oh well, i’ll make it i suppose.

yesterday was such a bad day. but i got a lot of sleep to try and beat this sickness that is trying to take over my body, i cannot afford to get sick. if i get sick, i’ll just give up, i know it. part of me thinks i am overwhelming myself with 23 credits, one of those classes being a show that my director expects us to devote all of our free time to, and the other half doesn’t want to admit it. however, today was so pretty. i love when it starts to get cold and i can put on my $8 goodwill peacoat and walk around with a scarf or a hat. the wind was blowing in such a way that all of the orange leaves were falling off the trees and it was like it was raining spiraling leaves. even though my nose was running and i had previously been craving the feeling of lying in bed until my next class, i just wanted to stand there and let all the leaves hit me. and the second i got in to my jail cell of a room that feeling dissappeared. there are days when all i need is someone to help me acknowledge that this school is not my life, not my home. that i have a home 2 and a half hours from here with a warm bed, food, and two parents who love me. and that i have an amazing sister 12 hours away who loves and believes in me. but sometimes its hard to acknowledge that when every day i feel as though i only have about an hour to myself and then i lose that to working on things for my classes.

i’ve grown up so much in the last year and a half. so much. i love it. as much as i miss being a little kid where i was able to ask anybody what to do and they’d show me the best choice for me, i love being grown up. being capable of making informed decisions. i can vote for the first time in my life and i’m not going to waste that. i’m going to do as much research on my own that i can and look in to everything and make as informed a decision as possible. because i don’t want to grow up into one of those ignorant americans who votes based on their friends or on who is black or white or female. i want to vote for who i think is going to take this country in the right direction. i love me. you know that? for the first times in my life i am capable of saying that.

now i’m going to go organize my fridge. ❤


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  • anditbegins: actually, it looks like 10 times bigger biotch. stop being so jeal.
  • Julie: whoosh look at that chest go! boom. roasted.
  • anditbegins: trust me, i know julie.